leave it to fucking me.

I missed a court date....and went to the slammer for it last Tuesday....and just regained my freedom YESTERDAY. I was there for EIGHT DAYS.

I guess I should begin at the beginning.

So I working last Tuesday-pumped on only having one day of my 7 days on left-just trying to make it through those last 2 days, when Tiff texts me and says a man was at the house looking for me saying that I had a warrant and asking where I was. She told him she didn't know. I knew it was a matter of time before he showed up to my work....and within the hour....HE DID. He had a policeman come get me FROM MY JOB and take me to jail and since my job is in Marion County...I got called into Marion County jail. So I had to go there first and wait for Hamilton County to pick me up and transport me there so I could go to court, etc...which , mind you, transport can take up to 10 days between counties. I was so afraid I'd be in Marion County for 10 whole days. So the man that came to get me was nice enough to let me call everyone and get something arranged for Everett (Mom came and got him for me and kept him until I got home). Also he didn't cuff me at work-was a nice gesture, given the situation I guess. Anyhow...the police guy comes...and then he calls a van thing to come get me...so I wait on that and finally that guy shows up and actually takes me to Marion County Jail. What a place this turned out to be. I was in heels...business casual work attire...I was freezing. While waiting to be processed here I witnessed a young lady come in completely and entirely obliterated...and pee right there in her pants in front of everyone, all the while yelling "I DON'T GIVE A FUCK!" at the police. They gave her some different pants...and she opted to take a nap after that and use her pee pants as her "pillow". Also saw an old black lady that was rowdy to say in the least, that had been thrown into a drunk tank by herself, I'm guessing because of her unruly behavior, that literally, for 8-9 hours was banging on the glass and yelling at the "pigs" that were "holding her down becaw sheus colurt"...this is no exaggeration here, folks. She kept this up until the "colurt pig" went into her cell and reminded her that she WAS in JAIL, mayhap she had forgotten. Finally get booked in....and taken to 3A Block. LADIES...if you ever get arrested in Marion County and are told you are going to 3A, your life is OVER. I witnessed a girl like a year older than me puke over the side of her bunk for HOURS...little did I know that it was all because of HEROINE withdrawals! Please bear in mind that of the 27 dirtbags I was living with, aside from myself and three other girls, THEY WERE ALL IN THERE FOR PROSTITUTION among other things. I was there until about 2:30am Saturday...and not once did I pee, drink water, eat, NOTHING. I slept. Each time praying that I would wake up and it would all be some freakish dream....but it wasn't. So at 2:30 Saturday morning Hamilton County came to get me. While I was waiting to be loaded into yet another super comfortable van a amale inmate worker started talking to me and saying things like "DAYYUMM GRRRRA, WHERE YOU HAIL FROM???? CUZ ID LIKETA VISIT." and when I gave no response he automatically came back with "Oh she must not like dudes." LOL was so funny. So I got to Hamilton County Jail at about 4:00am Saturday morning. I was in the drunk tank waiting to get booked in until 6:00am the NEXT morning. Was SO ridiculous. Arrive in the actual jail at about 7:00am and everyone is still sleeping so they tell me what bunk to go to and I fall asleep. Get up for lunch at like 12 or something like that only to discover that a girl I worked with at Friday's is in there, a girl I went to high school with is in there, ALONG with a girl I worked at TJ Maxx with. WHAT THE FUCK? Was so unreal. So I at least had familiar faces to keep me somewhat together while I was there. There is alot more to this story but the rest of it is mostly about....me changing and how the things I saw there effected me. It was really scary and I hated being there but I needed to see it for sure. I'm glad it happened...just wish I hadn't sat in there for quite SO long.

Maybe I will post again once I've got all my thoughts sorted...things are still a little jumbled and I'm probably going to be sorting all of this out for a little while at least.

This sort of thing definately shows you whoe cares about you...I couldn't be happier with what I found. I may not have very many people...but I've got a few that will be there for me no matter what stupid thing I do and will try to be supportive and help me fix whatever it is that I manage to fuck up every single time. I love these people and they know who they are....you guys are the greatest. DO LOVE YOU ALL.

Will update again soon...just have too much going on at the moment to talk about everything else I've got going on.