Uncovering.

I haven't been updating on purpose. I've been emersing myself in books...maybe one last attempt at finding the writer that once was my being...maybe just because I'm coming to grips with the fact that that writer is gone. I guess I could just be living vicariously through these other writers...writers that still have stories to tell and the words to make them meaningful.

I've been thinking. Too much.

I've been enjoying Brandon's company.

I've been ecstatic about Ev and all the new things he is doing. He says MOMMA now! He eats Cheerio's and he actually has adjusted quite nicely to his walker. Excellent.

Jim moved in. So far so good. It's sort of a wait and see I suppose...but I have the best of hopes that everything will work out just fine.

He told me a few days ago that he can't make any promises...that yes, Kristin, you're right, anything could happen but that he wanted to make it work, that he'd do whatever it takes to make it work. He said he won't ever take his days with me for granted. I love him for these things.

I'm not going to be afraid anymore. Well...I might be afraid but I won't let that hold me back from the experience, whatever that may turn out to be. Good, bad, indifferent, I'm down to experience it all.

I love my life. It's not perfect but it's mine...and my life is just what I have needed it to be.

Seent soon.