There is no saving him now.

The point where I should have just stopped this madness and let you delve into your failures on your own time/terms has come and gone long ago. I'm no longer going to let you carry out your feeble attempts at taking me down with you. IT'S JUST NOT WORTH THE STRESS.

I'm willing to just let bygones be bygones if this can all just be over. If you could just politely, silently, and quickly retreat to some other sector of the Universe it would be a breathe of fresh air.

We don't need you and I refuse to beg you to do what you should have been doing from Jump Street.

I wish I could erase this entirely. Except for Ev of course, who is the driving force for anything and everything I do in my life. I can't help being hurt by what you've done. You singlehandedly dismantled my life and you did it seemingly overnight, right under my nose and had it not hurt so badly, I don't think I would ever have been the wiser. You are the ONE and ONLY person who should care about him as much as I do and it crushes me that you have chosen not to. Not for me of course, but for your son, who will now grow up the same way I did, dealing with the constant wondering that comes with the My Parent Doesn't Want Me territory. It's not his fault that I didn't see you for what you are. It's not his fault that you've taken the path that you have. It's not his fault that we got pregnant young and without and sort of planning involved. It's not his fault that there wasn't any real love between us. I hate you for what are doing to him. He doesn't deserve it, he's an angel, and you have taken from him something that no one can replace. I can only hope that someway, somehow you will eventually feel how he will feel. I wish that on you everyday because you brought this evil on him. You are the cause of the turmoil it will inevitably cause him!

I'm cutting all the ties. I want to wash my hands of you as though you were the sticky residue left in the cupholder of my car after a soda spill that I unknowingly and regretfully put my fingers in.