Humbled

I'm now down to 4 weeks left in jail. The first couple of weeks was really hard for me but now I'm realizing that every week I go away, I come home with a new frame of mind, a new outlook, a new friend, anything. I always come home with something I didn't have when I left and I'm greatful for each new thing I learn or person I meet when I'm gone. The first week I went I meet Rebecca. She's been sitting in jail for almost a year now. She's been charged with the murder of ther baby girl that she and her husband adopted from China. I know in my heart that she is innocent. She always manages to keep it together, remain as calm as one can in a situation like the one she is in. She's taught me a lot about being thankful for what you have, acceptance, and trying-even when you should feel bitter, to let that bitterness go. Rebecca is a beautiful person and faced with a huge decision, I know she will do what feels right to her and I know she and her family will make it out of the nightmare they are in safe and sound, together. The second week I went I'm not sure I really met anyone new but I spent this week getting to know the girls I'd met the week prior. The third week I met Kelly. She was outside the jail when I came to turn myself in. She's awesome and we get along great. We also found out that her best friend is my ex boyfriend from a million years ago. Funny how things like that come up. This last week I met Liz. She's great. She kept me laughing the whole time I was there and made the week much more enjoyable for me. She's been through than I could ever stomach and she's here still, she's making it. We talked about her story and how she'd considered writing a book about it. I told her I would do it and I really hope she will let me. She's got a story that people need to hear. I really believe that telling her story to the masses might give her a chance to tell her side of the story and hopefully offer the closure she has thus far been unable to attain. All of these people have had a huge impact on me, all in very different ways. I know that I met all these girls for a reason and I know that I will forever have them as my friends. Jail hasn't been as bad as I thought it would be. I've learned and gained a lot but at the same time it really does take a lot out of me when while I'm there. I come home exhausted, drained, perpectually unprepared for my upcoming work week. I despise leaving Brandon and Ev but I know there is a reason for all this. I'm just trying to sit back and soak it all in.