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yesterday i didn't work because i had to go take an "attidudinal progression" class or something like that for probation. i was there early and got to leave early and took the certificate of completion they gave me straight to my probation officer. i was so excited to give him that stupid piece of paper...it was all i had left to do and once i handed it to him, i was finished with all the hell i've been dealing with for almost a year. i am finally FINALLY done with jail, probation, all of it. and i feel spectacular about it.

in other news:
i've been an absolute pill to deal with the past few days i think. i figured brandon was about ready to run me over or something when he showed up at my work today with everett. i thought he was just bringing ev by to see me when he pulls out flowers. he bought me flowers. and delivered them to my work himself. and even brought me a vase from home to put them in so i could keep them at work with me today. i know...i totally don't deserve his presents or attention or probably even his love because of how i've been acting but he loves me anyway, no matter how much of an asshole i am. i love him the most for that i think. my flowers are beautiful by the way.

as far as preg updates...i am still having killer headaches from quitting smoking and cutting out caffiene all at once....i'm hoping all that gets easier in the next couple of days. britney and i are going to start going to the gym fridays, sundays, and wednesdays so hopefully that will help me keep from gaining so much weight like last time. i'm also going to start a food journal as lame as that sounds...but i think it might help me keep myself eating healthier foods. i really want to be healthy this time and do it the right way. i mean, i was healthy with everett but i didn't rreally watch my intakes, etc. i'm excited...i'm already looking at old fashioned little old lady names like hazel and vivian. i am kind of hoping i have a little girl...would be nice for ev to have a baby sister to protect and play with! here's hoping things go as planned. i love my life right now. i'm never looking back at the last 6 or 7 months...there is nothing for me there. the time is now and it's here. cheers to the future.